In her own words...
This is not a fad or something we are doing for fun. Because let me tell you, we are excited about this baby girl, but this process is hard. The paperwork is hard, the waiting is hard, the fundraising is hard, leaving my boys here when we go to Ethiopia twice is going to be VERY hard, leaving our daughter to come back here after the first trip will be VERY hard, seeing the poverty & desolation in Africa is going to be hard, seeing all of the other children at the orphanages that don't have a forever home is going to be hard....but the fact of the matter is that we can't take all of them home. Thinking that if we hadn't said "yes" to adoption, that our precious daughter might have stayed in an orphanage for her entire life or worse yet, might have died, is unfathomable to me. I think sometimes we wait for the neon sign to tell us what God wants us to do, and I'm learning more and more that the neon signs are all in the Bible already. As our hearts become more and more like Jesus, those neon signs start to light up. Caring for the poor and the orphans is a command...it's not an option as to whether or not you are "called" to that, it's a matter of what you're going to do about it. Maybe you are not called specifically to bring a child into your home, but you need to decide what it is you ARE going to do because the way that so many people live in the world is unacceptable, and that some people are never shown love their entire lives is unacceptable and I am quite sure that it is unacceptable to God when we turn a deaf ear.
In saying all of this I don't want you to think that we, the Cox family, have our acts together because we don't. I don't want to paint a perfect picture on here of our family or of this adoption. I fight the urge to "pat myself on the back"...this is not something that WE are doing, this is something that God is doing THROUGH us. At 30 years old, I am just beginning to really "get it"...what it means to be a follower of Jesus. The fact is that it took years for God to open my heart to the poor and to the possibility of adoption, even when during those years it was in my face and I continued to push it away because of fear and inadequacy. We certainly don't think that because we're adopting one child we have met our "quota" of helping the poor and orphans. I pray every day that God will keep opening up my heart to more and more of His heart, to more and more uncomfortable situations. My flesh wants to stay comfortable but my heart does not, and I know there is so much more that He can accomplish through our family. We are not content to just stop with this adoption...there has to be more because the adoption of our daughter does not end world poverty or mean that all other orphans have a home.
I just have a long way to go. I apologize if this was too preachy for some of you...it's what was on my heart.
(I will get a Halloween post up soon for those that are interested :-)
3 comments:
I love this post Summer. what an inspiration.
I read all that you have written and see myself in every word! Your thoughts are like so many of my thoughts...I am so thankful God has allowed us to be on this journey together. I can't wait for time to actually sit down & talk in person!!! Many blessings on you friend!
So many of your posts leave tears in my eyes...but the good kind! So proud of all that y'all are doing. I can really see God working in your lives! And we will continue to pray for our precious little girl! She will be so blessed! Love you!
Nana
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